Journal #1: Spirituality Meet Reality: Why I Combine Numerology With...

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Why I combine Numerology with…



The simple answer to why I combine Numerology with crafting, music, pop culture, and more is because I can and I want to. That’s all. However, I would like to provide at least a little bit more of an explanation because I know that this is not as common as people do with Astrology or just in general, it isn’t common.

I grew up with various interests, from painting to running to studying spiritual practices. In college, when I first attended CSU: Sacramento, I was a Humanities and Religious Studies major, concentrating in Humanities because I wanted to study the human condition. What makes us human, and the artistic movements created to express who we are as humans.

Fast forward to 2016, I had taken a break from school due to mental health issues, in particular, Bipolar disorder, in which I was officially diagnosed later that year. I was suicidal. I was distraught. But I wasn’t broken because I had passion.

Passion in studying the why behind my suicidality, not necessarily from a clinical perspective, because I had a clear understanding that the depression, I was feeling was a major depressive episode (I had been previously diagnosed with Clinical Depression in 2013) but a spiritual perspective. In a way that didn’t demonize or glorify what I was going through, but simply provide insight into how I could address it.

So I spent a lot of time in Libraries and used bookstores, including one in Berkeley, on Telegraph, near a spice shop and a Rasputin store… and I found a wonderful book by Matthew Oliver Godwin. It is titled, Numerology, the Complete Guide, Volume 1.

I poured my heart out as I studied each number listed in the book and each aspect of Numerology and came to the conclusion that while yes, my Bipolar disorder was here to stay, that I did need medication, and that I also needed a regime that worked for me—that I also had a tendency to be hard on myself. And interestingly enough, all of this showed in my chart.

Now I want to say that no, Numerology is not a substitute for an official diagnosis. It is not a salve for suicide, but it was something that allowed me to analyze myself in a somewhat objective way, in the midst of being in tremendous pain.

So for me, Numerology is a way for me to bounce the ball back and forth, to examine myself in a way that allows me to question my thoughts and actions.

So why combine it with other things I love? Because I started to see aspects of numerology everywhere, in music, in movies and television, in color theory. I couldn’t help but notice and it was exciting to explore how I could use Numerology to study these things.

For example, Candyman has so many aspects of 8 energy in it. The business dynamics in the movie, the never-ending cycles of violence and self-discovery… It allows me to see media and fashion in a new light.

Then when it comes to crafting something new, such as my durags, I use the colors associated with the numbers and the energies associated with both to imbue a vibe that empowers the wearer, either through sheer aesthetics or through the deeper meanings behind it all.

I hope this answers your query.